Devoted

DEVOTION
1 TIMOTHY
DEVOTED
1 Tim 4:13-14
13 Until I come, devote yourself to the public reading of Scripture, to preaching and to teaching. 14 Do not neglect your gift, which was given you through a prophetic message when the body of elders laid their hands on you.
NIV
I will Lord, until you come. That is the only way I can see this. I know it was Paul talking to Timothy, but for goodness sake does this not sound as though it is Christ talking to me? I will devote myself to preaching and teaching his Holy word. I will not give up doing what I know I have been called to do. He has called me and he has made a path, a way for me to fulfill that calling here where I am. It was the Spirit of God who led me here in the first place. I heard his voice and I responded not knowing why at the time, but now I do. I am able to not neglect my gift, which was given to me. I am not sure about the prophetic message and those elders although as I reflect I was called by them in my church in Illinois to teach, and even after I simple could not meet the requirement of attending a special class to learn how to teach. I was still called to teach. Maybe it was prophetic, I am not sure. But I do know that is what God has designed for me and he has always made a way to use me in that manner. I have no human skills in communication, I even spell words wrong, if it were not for spell check what would I do? I have such a difficult time carrying a conversation with people, especially when more than two or more are present. The only reason I am able to teach, preach and write about the truths of God is because of him. He has gifted me, empowered me, and sustains me in the fulfilling of his high calling. I will devote myself to this task, which in all reality is no task at all, but a joy. I would suppose others feel the same way about the calling God has place upon them, whatever that is. I do think the reason he called me to this particular purpose was because I have no training or skill in this area and he is able to get all the glory and praise in what I do. I have absolutely no problem with that either, in fact, I delight in being able to declare that very thing. It is not I who lives but it is Christ who lives in me, or maybe more correctly his Spirit who lives in me, for Christ is actually at the right hand of the Father. But it is the idea of Christ which lives in me, the example he set of doing the Fathers will, being obedient to the Father even onto death. I must continue on no matter the cost doing what I know he has called me to do. To this cause I am devoted.