True Koinania

DEVOTION
PHILIMON
TRUE KOINANIA
Philem 12-16
12 I am sending him — who is my very heart — back to you. 13 I would have liked to keep him with me so that he could take your place in helping me while I am in chains for the gospel. 14 But I did not want to do anything without your consent, so that any favor you do will be spontaneous and not forced. 15 Perhaps the reason he was separated from you for a little while was that you might have him back for good— 16 no longer as a slave, but better than a slave, as a dear brother. He is very dear to me but even dearer to you, both as a man and as a brother in the Lord.
NIV
Spontaneous is much better then forced. Whatever I do for someone else should certainly be without being forced to do it, but rather doing it with my heart. That is the question at hand, what is from the heart? Do I serve someone out of a sense of obedience to God, or from my heart? Do I just think that because I am a believer, I should be helping someone or is it actually coming from my heart? I am not sure I can differentiate between these two but I think they are different. I think I should just what to do things for others, because I simply what do. I do not think that I should ask myself, what would Jesus do? If I have to ask then I am not really doing it from the heart, but from my sense of responsibility to be a good servant of Christ. I know there is a difference, but I just can’t quite put my finger on it. This helping should just be as natural as breathing I think. Maybe the core issue is how I consider my fellow believer. Do I see them as just people or as dear brothers and sisters in the Lord? Now at the same time should others become so dependent on my helping them they never what me to leave their service, always asking me to stay on and keep helping them? Do they see me as a bond servant, or as a dear brother in the Lord? There is a two way street here within this truth. All believers should be helping each other from the inner core of their heart, giving to each other whatever skills, talents, and gifts God has bestowed upon them. Every believer should be considering every other believer as a dear brother or sister in the Lord, desiring to serve them and for them to experience the best life in Christ. I think I should not ever enjoy seeing one of my dear fellow believers depart from my presence. I should want all of them to forever be with me, and they should consider me the same. Departure should always instill the desire for a return. Maybe all of this is the true koinania.