Chains

DEVOTION
EPHESIANS
CHAINS
Eph 6:19-20
9 Pray also for me, that whenever I open my mouth, words may be given me so that I will fearlessly make known the mystery of the gospel, 20 for which I am an ambassador in chains. Pray that I may declare it fearlessly, as I should.
NIV
Yesterday it was about my mouth and today about my chains. Sure Paul actually had chains and I do not, but that does not release me from being a prisoner of Christ. Oh not in that sense I cannot leave, or that he holds me against my will. But how could I leave? I am a bond servant, I willing am in chains to him, at least metaphorically speaking. I am not sure if I am as good of an ambassador as I should be. I wonder if I represent him to the world as I am supposed to. I know when I behave improperly in any way I miss the mark. Oh sure I may not do anything horrible, but I also may not be as pure as I should be when the world is watching. When I express myself, do I do it as Christ would? I know when I get a little vehement about my faith, or the word, I may not be the ambassador I should be. When I loss am patience and express it, I am not being a good ambassador. If I am in those chains I should be so close to Christ that it should be more natural for me to be like him than like me. Sometimes I just have a difficult time remembering my chains, my ties to Christ, and my old self pops right up and raises his ugly head. How can this be? Why? He was suppose to be dead. No, I am in those chains and I am his ambassador and I am going to continue the course, stand my ground, and win the battle against those schemes of the devil. He wants me to think I am not right, and I refuse to allow that. Jesus keeps me safe. I am still in the process of learning, and growing each and every day of my life until he decides to take me home. So I am his ambassador, faults and all, and I am in chains for his name sake. I will remain so all the days of my life.