Here I am

Sorry about the lost days of blogging, my time here on Marco is so relaxing, my mind is so still, that thoughts of self, and reflections of concepts and ideas have taking a back sit to the casual attitude that has infiltrated my mind. With warm days, plenty of sunshine, opportunities to smack that little white orb either at the range or as in yesterday, around the 18 holes with new friends, walk, soak in the warm water of the pool, and work, if you can call it work, on the cad program designing my future model railroad, I have allowed my brain to slip into a more tranquil mode then usual. There has been some exchanges of substance, which stimulate the brains cells lurking deep within, however at a cost. Several evenings ago my sister had some of her friends over for dominoes and dinner. I had promised not to bring up any conversation that would in any way cause a situation of stress in her life. The subjects of my inner most thoughts, God and country were off limits, knowing me, you must understand that small talk is not my strong suit. However, because of the love I have for my sister, I restrained myself and talked as small as I could, I think I was somewhat successful and the evening passed. That was not the case the other evening when it was just the three of us, my sister and I once again engaged in very stimulating conversation regarding issues we surely stand 180 degrees upon. One thing is for sure and we did agree, she is a grey person and I am a black and white person. I know greys are out there, and believe in all their heart issues have way too much complexity to understand, or to deal with in concrete ways. Is my simple black and white approach not attainable? Does my faith in the Holy scriptures and my God keep me from seeing the complexity of the issues? I might have to ponder upon this more, not to change my mind, but to understand it better.